ashley a.k.a put-your-hands-up

2008-12-24T10:42:00.000+11:00

A chocolate for you is sweet.

A dozen of chocolate for you is too sweet.

A box of chocolate for you is diabetes.

If you love, one is enough.

you the only one in my heart and I do love you.

My girl, you're my everything.

No doubt that is the sign of romance. :)

2008-11-28T12:40:00.000+11:00

Will you be my valentine's for the rest of your life?

Guy out there not to be mean and steal my girl, okay!

She's officially mine.
and I'm officially missing her at another far far place. :)

equation

2008-11-17T00:29:00.000+11:00

Thank you baby.

baby always concern me when I need you.
baby always cheer me up when I'm down.

Me + Her = LOVE.

That's the equation for me and you.

getting closer dear!

2008-11-08T00:15:00.000+11:00

I'm happy because my parents is getting closer to my girl. *YIPPY YEA YEA*

Does that mean they're trying to accept her as their daughter in law? LOL!

However things does not going smoothly. It need times. It need effort.
I put so much times and effort to show them and proof to them that we really serious in the relationship and we are not playing.

At the same time, I'm a big step closer to her family. I'm invited to her family trip. Although I might be just there as a tourist guide but I'm still happy for it because I'm part of them.

concentrate!

2008-11-02T03:48:00.003+11:00

It's 3:50am right now
and why I'm still blogging?

because I can't tahan abnormal psychology already
I can feel that I'm half dead right now :(

Monday my last paper
and that's my worst paper i ever have
Mood turning over and over
I can feel myself getting into abnormal personalities
very very soon

Still on the lecture slides
haven't started my textbook yet
and yeah CASE STUDIES still on 0% progress
How I gonna finish off everything in one day?

Green tea few packets and few packets :)
keep myself awake
but I'm not concentrating =="

birthday =]

2008-11-01T20:50:00.002+11:00

Happy Halloween =]
Trick or treat?

Happy 21st birthday for myself.

I know it's really bad to have my birthday fall between the exam period. I can't imagine how terrible it is but I can feel it right at the moment :(
Thank you for Lisa, Adeline and Shuyar coming over to my house right at 12am last night for the surprise. Love you guys!
Thank you for Karen, Xuan and Arthur coming over to my house today =]
Seriously I'm so happy with all this plan from you guys. So sweet of it.

The very very thank you for my loved one. Never failed to give me such a sweet moments between me and her =] . Thanks for the card, wishes and the true heart.
Never ever forget you owe me a cake "a birthday cake" okay not a cupcake. Oh yes one more paper and that's it. I can't wait to go home and enjoy my holidays loooorrrrrrrrr.

Thank to all peeps who wishes me happy birthday in facebook, sms, phone.
People who indirectly wish me, people who never thought of wishing me. OKAY, that's make me understand what is so-called-friends to be.

2008-10-23T02:22:00.002+11:00

obviously everyone is in their exam period and this is so-called-stress ==
Done with the speaking test and that's not that good but not really bad thou =] Exam is around the corner and yet I freaking worried lor okay especially both psychology subject. APA MACAM DENGAN SEMUA INI!? *suffering me in pain*

I MUKA MASAM

due to the exam

I MAKAN BANYAK

due to the exam

I FACING COMP

due to the exam

I BECOME FAT ASH

due to the exam

I really hate exam lor okay
but I do enjoy holidays after my exam

Clarify myself as a gay

2008-10-13T20:19:00.000+11:00

Seriously I found the different between western countries and Malaysia after I further my studies in Australia. "Are you born to be homosexual?" or "Are you being hurt by someone before?" or "When do you know that your are a lesbian?" All this questions happen around me once they know I'm a lesbian. No doubt they are just curious about how's life of being a lesbian.

In Malaysia, I never wanted to tell peoples that I'm a lesbian. I'm trying to hide myself from the truth due to Malaysia is an Islamic country that cannot accept homosexual. Being deceived as a deviance if I telling everyone that I'm a lesbian. Somehow being out from the closet never cross to my mind when I'm in Malaysia. I change my mind after I came to Australia, I being proud that I'm gay. err cannot use proud this word is just that I think that it is not a crime or anything that hurt others. I'm just being myself, and that's me.

I do have a girlfriend when I'm in secondary school but I admit that when we went out shopping we will more act like a close friends rather than a couple. God knows that Islamic countries doesn't not accept homosexual somehow I should know that we are not allowed to be too over in public. Comparing to Australia, is very different. I can feel the gay rights in Australia but not in Malaysia. Everyone respect to the gay! Everyone will be equalized! no hard time of being a lesbian in Australia. By the mean time, gay marriage are legalized in Australia and not in Malaysia. The hardest things for every gay couple in Malaysia that have to face on.

As a lesbian, there are butch, andro, femme, etc. people who labeled them as a butch always fucked up their life in Malaysia. They don't have to tell people that they're lesbian and people will just judge them by their look of short hair, boyish style, boyish attitude, and act so boyish. I still remember I heard that there is a political news about being boyish is illegal in Malaysia. "National Fatwa Council forbids tomboyism" The title that have been held around Malaysia newspaper by The National Fatwa Council has ruled that tomboyism, where a girl behaves or dresses in a boyish manner, is forbidden in Islam. In Malaysia, everything is restricted comparing to other countries. Everyone have their own life. Even gays have their own rights.

In Malaysia, I happened to see some of the people who post in forum mentioning that once their parents know their gays relationship. They are not allowed to go out and they are not to mix with friends who looks boyish and the parents are being discriminant to people who looks boyish. sophiscate their mobile and not allow them to contact with outsiders.

Come back to the question according to most of my friends who asked me. I would like to clarify everything here rather than answering everyone question one after one.
I clarify myself as a lesbian. I love girls. And I'm a butch somehow a bit girlish. I act like a girl and I like girl that who I am. I never get hurt my anyone else before and turning my sex orientation. Instead of interested to the opposite sex, I prefer same sex! I remember my first love who i fell on is in form 3 (15years old). There is this girl who is my best friend in class we used to chat on the phone almost everyday. In some instances, that she's playing with my another bestie who seems like very boyish too and I will started to feel the pain in my heart. It is feeling of being jealous and everytime she close to me, my heart popping quickly. And this conclude that, I fell on her. And I know I'm a lesbian from the day on. Another reason is because I found it is more easy for me to get along with girls. I do not hate boys is just that I just dislike to communicate with them, is just that I'm not interested on them.

2008-10-11T17:00:00.002+11:00

Sincerely begging my blog for forgiveness
sorry for neglect you for ages
because my life wasn't that interesting to blog about
nothing much happen due to too much tasks to be done!!!!!!

Recently I was just staying at home facing the computer to complete my assignments, listen to songs and chit-chatting. Have been awhile never out from my house but i did go grocery-shopping opposite my house. I still need some foods for myself though I'm just staying at home right!?

Nothing runs out under your prediction.
Don't expect too much to wider the way you get hurt.

I have been thinking all the while that I'm too childish to be in a relationship. Oh well I'm going to be 21 and I should not being childish for the time being. My beloved one always tends to forgive once and once but I always repeated the same things which I shouldn't do so. I'm sorry for trouble-ing you so much. ILoveYou

2008-10-01T21:07:00.004+10:00

"Tick-Tock, Tick-Tock"
half of my holidays gone and I seems like did nothing for the holidays =(

Dinner with Taylor's besties!
Catherine's birthday celebration

Location: TGI Fridays-Pancake Parlour
Date: 290908

Dinner here!

here we are again in between the dishes =)

Our dishes! *yummy*

I and Dorothy *gonna miss you after you back HK*

Birthday girl always the one who will get bully

I, Joana, Dorothy, Annie
next year wont be seeing you guys anymore =(

Next Pancake Parlour

Dessert Time =)

Just for you our dearest Catherine

I look so fat, short, ugly but cute

We have endless conversation
3hours,4hours and so on
there is no ending
forever and ever

2008-09-27T01:05:00.002+10:00

Mid semester break
here you come

task to be done during the mid semester break:
Japanese assignment
Psy lab report
Psy abnormal essay
1 class test
1 speaking test
1 listening test

Damn Uni! Sorry for being so rude but isn't a holiday?
how come so much things to do?

okay! I admit my school is too over
uni reopen early than other uni
uni ended late than other uni
uni sem break only 1 week

WHAT? NOT FAIR lor okay

I memang geram with all this

same sex have fair right!

2008-09-17T00:21:00.000+10:00

I doubt that why people in Malaysia is so hard to accept people as me?

I can feel how free is the people in Melbourne. There is gay bar everywhere. They see us as normal. but why can't we have the same in Malaysia.

Gay marriage is still illegal and we can't have the fair rights as heterosexual.
We asking for it because we mean it. Everyone have their own rights mate!

Don't give me the feeling of being abandoned because we are gay, we are human and even we are with the same sex we still in the relationship. We still love the person we are with. I think that girl is always better than guy. no doubt I LOVE SAME SEX. That's the point straight forward to I see girl as the perfect one.

绝种

2008-09-15T21:43:00.002+10:00

人人都纷纷并论好男人都绝种了

这是最好的理由为何同志渐渐日升

虽说好男人绝种了

可是好女人还没啊

请把我归类为好女人之一吧!

哈哈哈哈哈哈

2008-09-15T13:22:00.002+10:00

Mid-Autumn Festival
I hereby, wishing everyone Happy Mid-autumn Festival. Having a great night with the loved one's? I rather rushed home and facing the computer because I want to have a great night with my loved one's and yet it do so. I'm pretty with how I celebrate it. You're not by myside but I still think this make me feel happiness enough. Sometimes over worried will just make things worst. Like me, I do and most of our arguments are due to my stupid over worried about you. Worried about things that wont be happen and being just to much. I should change it for our better life.

hahaha... no lantern but I had a picture of lantern from my sweet one!

2008-09-15T00:05:00.002+10:00

Happy Mooncake Festival

randomly picked to post on *my mouth so big*

The stupid look when I had my mooncake

nahhh.. here are a tiny bit of mooncake for you!! yes YOU!

randomly picture of me *camwhore!!*

2008-09-11T23:46:00.003+10:00

I realized something I should know in the beginning of everything happen. But at least what I understand was not that late because I still got the chance to change everything back into same. Except the arguments. I ~~guess~~ we could be better. NONO! could be SURE this time. A good damn speech should consists of learn to be tolerate, to forgive how it happen and forget the past looking forward. For some reason of arguments rise, my attitude, myself being selfish, my bad temper. I'm sorry for the incident and I wish this will never happen once again between me and you.

The feeling deep down in my heart is really so pain and hurt. And I admit if this continue happening, I know my heart could not handle it anymore. So please! please! please!
never ever let this happen once again!

Dear god,

I know what I did in the past is seriously break someone heart. but could you please just don't bring this to me. I know I'm selfish but I just want a happily ever after with someone who I love to be with. And thanks for stopping my tears dropped out! I feel better with the relief of the pain in my heart. The tears stop dropping. And everything go well now.

2008-09-11T02:13:00.001+10:00

Things come out like shit
and I swear I'll never write anything which could represents my feeling
Because I don't know how to give a good damn speech

2008-09-10T01:45:00.002+10:00

不知道是什麽爛事
搞到一個本來很久沒流淚的人

竟然流淚了
是因爲又再一次的很在乎那個人嘛？

不知
我不想知道
因爲流下的淚，換不來什麽

2008-09-09T22:59:00.002+10:00

For some-I-dunno what reason,
I suddenly so E-M-O

IF I'm a millionaire
I would like to get my ass off from here right now
just to see you

IF my parents
own a plane then I can no need to bother about the money issues
just to see you

IF I'm there with you
then I can always by your side
just to acc you

Everything starts with IF
it will be just a dream
There ain't an easy way for me to see you

2008-09-08T16:25:00.000+10:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

p/s: Is it you the one I've been waiting for?

2008-09-06T03:41:00.002+10:00

Trying not to put my spot on you
because I know I'm trying to avoid from missing you
The more I miss you
The more I would thought of look for you
and I realized you're not there
Your name is not appearing in my msn~

I do, I do, I really do miss you!
I really have to admit it~

2008-09-04T01:20:00.001+10:00

若愛你那麽難説出口

那就不用再説好了~

2008-09-03T23:01:00.002+10:00

Things are getting better
Problem solved
Relationship steady
Enjoying Life

nothing much to say
but I do appreciate what I have now
and hope it would be better

2008-09-03T00:35:00.002+10:00

Implication of being too far from you

Can't be by yourside when you needed someone
Can't take care of you when you're sick
I got no rights to know what's really going on around you

2008-09-02T18:35:00.002+10:00

Pictures taken for the two outing last week:

Kate's birthday, taken somewhere around lygon street

Thy: Ashley put your hands up and show us how long is ur hand

Everyone: SHOW US!

me: Okaylar here they are

This picture is to prove that my hand is long enough for 3 persons XD

The reason I love to show out my tongue
but..
My tongue is no longer the longest among my friends!

Someone who can be better than me

Vonne you're the winner!!!

Merdeka! The best reason for us to go clubbing and say YES to alcohol beverages
Cheers mate!

2008-08-27T20:02:00.003+10:00

Everything throws on me at once
nothing less
and nothing left over
all on me

*a weird shape from starbust fruity fusion

Due to this lame-ness shape
me, xuan me, xuan and arthur
rolling on the floor with our laugh

Try to think why we can laugh like mad cow
with the odd shape

2008-08-26T23:24:00.002+10:00

I just can't accept things goes like that, maybe I'm just too much.
I'm don't like things goes that way.

A day

2008-08-26T02:33:00.004+10:00

Olympic was done
Before the closing ceremony, a lot of people was saying that closing ceremony is much more surprising compare to the opening ceremony.
but, everything came out like CRAP!
CRAPPY~~~~

Oh well
Andy Lau with just a tiny mini step almost PK but for the blessing by God
He saved by Jackie Chan
I think if he really do PK it should be the ever best scene for Olympic closing
SHOULD BE only!

Had my Japanese mid sem test today.
One word to describe everything
BULLSHIT

Definitely my most failure paper I had done
even worst than Computer Science, Maths paper than I had done previously.
I don't have the mood to imagine how sucks is the paper was.

Because there are a role play, a presentation and a lab report
which due on next week enough for me to think of

Went to Starbucks to meet up Anne for our coming lab report experiment
nothing much for the rest of the day.
There is enough happening for a day~

*I wish I could be better to be your beloved

Still the same

2008-08-24T18:44:00.003+10:00

I guess I'm just too ~~over~~ harsh. I shall bring out my sincere apologize to her at here.
I shouldn't being so unreasonable. You're not wrong but I'm just keep blaming you're ~~stupid~~.
I still the one who used to be, I never change my attitude for being good.

For what I had done, what I had said.
Could you just forget about it.
Because I'm sorry
I don't mean it

Japanese test make my mind stuck

2008-08-24T01:16:00.002+10:00

你我之间那段情

你的好脾气
让我心情坏不起来
因为你总是给那种很开心地感觉

有时得你气到我
你的道歉
听着听着我都快要笑出来

世界上没有什么事
能够如此的绝对
可是我和你却拥有那种绝对在一起
的感觉

在这个彩色的世界
有你我才会存在

2008-08-23T15:10:00.002+10:00

Unexpected things happened all in me just within an hour
I accidentally deleted my wretch blog skin which I made it myself.
Okay that's still alright because it won't affect my mood easily but unfortunately..

the unexpected thing!!!!!

Arrrrrhhhhh

Jie booked the flight ticket for next year come back to Melbourne without telling me the date of it. Can you think how bullshit issit? After booked only let me know~ My class start end of Feb and I gonna back to Melbourne during end of Jan. Sighz~ One month of staying in the boring city just with my Mom and Dad can you imagine how worst is the situation will be?

Why everything must happen all in the same day and so near to each other. My mood deeply fall into the bottom line!!!!

2008-08-23T03:36:00.002+10:00

Just an outing means a lot between me and you
The trust is not there
Maybe I'm too bad for what I had done previously
But I changed! The changes I do just because of maintaining the relationship between US.

Baby can you give me one more chance and being trusty to me~

2008-08-22T20:15:00.002+10:00

You can love me better
I'll stick with you forever

I can love you better
I'll stick with you forever

I appreciate you
I'll stick with you forever

No doubt I love you so much
No doubt I need some entertainment
As long that I know what am I doing then it's okay already

2008-08-21T23:21:00.003+10:00

I'm so hungry at this moment so I guess I'll just post up some pictures to filled up my words:

I Love You to the below person

Try to make a guess with who is this?

Compare this two babies... well guess which is my hand drawing??!!

Do you think it looks like me? Definitely no right?
(my hairs??? impossible)

Times to sleep

Oh no... and times for 18SG

2008-08-20T14:19:00.003+10:00

Here I would like to update what I usually done when I'm totally HAE-ING. I keep watching movie where my house have a lot of VCD and DVD that I haven't watch since ages ago, and I watch some movie from Youtube, no doubt Youtube really give a lot entertainment in my life. LMAO!!!!

What movie I watched within this two days???!!!
....
.....
.......
.........

Step Up
Step Up 2
Puzzle 迷上集
Puzzle 迷下集
我的最愛
愛情萬歲
愛斗大
我猜我猜我猜猜猜
KERORO 軍曹
Meet The Parents
Meet the Forker

And now.....

My house left no movie for me to watch =.="

2008-08-19T00:34:00.003+10:00

To be honest, I feel bad for what I had done previously. Never think of the consequences when I do it.

but.......

THANKS FOR BEING UNDERSTANDING AND FORGIVE THE PAST

Done with the assignment which worth 50%
puke!! T_T
and still quite a lot assignments ~~coming soon~~ oppsss! is due soon

2008-08-18T13:23:00.001+10:00

若是一个善意的隐瞒

还不如隐瞒一世

2008-08-17T16:00:00.003+10:00

I want to be better
I want to do better

If I could turn back the time, I hope things wont happen in the past four months. But well, things is past I know I can't turn it back but it doesn't mean things become worst now. I found it is much more better compare to last time. Maybe we learn to appreciate each other after we lost it.

My brain is full of you, and YOU. I guess god give us another chance for us to proof we really meant to each other so just let the time proof it. and We will happily ever after =)

Went to cheong K last night due to Jasmine birthday, and
someone wasn't in a good mood
As a friend, I think I should go even
I got plenty of homeworks waiting for me
SERIOUSLY
I was so bored at there

2008-08-14T21:59:00.004+10:00

Went to swim and gym
due to:
1. body out of shape
2. Laksa Lemak
3. Khao soi gai
4. Pumpkin Custard
5. Gula Melaka

yeah last but not least, I LOVE SPORTS

AHHHHHHH!! Too much fattening foods today
I guess you will still love me even I'm out of shape right?

2008-08-14T00:07:00.000+10:00

NO clubbing
NO alcohol drinks
NO other girls

ONLY you

2008-08-12T20:51:00.003+10:00

the feeling of happy deep down inside my heart
I laugh till I choke when I'm eating
I smile while I'm sleeping
I dream of you in my dream

There is only 3 words I wanted to say
not even more

I LOVE YOU

I think I should start planning my time wisely
My body is out of shape and I'm unhealthy
I should do some sports to fix myself better =)

2008-08-12T00:54:00.001+10:00

A day 24 hours, 1440 minutes, 86400 seconds

Each day making us stronger
Let times proof we're meant to each other

2008-08-11T20:33:00.002+10:00

一世的時間很長
可是
還是要珍惜和你在一起的時間
因爲沒人會懂下一秒會發生什麽事
我不想失去了才來後悔

有緣的最後還是緊緊在一起

2008-08-10T21:28:00.002+10:00

The sweetest and warmest moment is being with you
You giving me what you had
You love me with all your heart
and I love you with the same way you do

We are changing to be better to fit into the circulation of each other world

I'm happy with what I have now
List:
You
Family
Friends

2008-08-09T20:31:00.002+10:00

when you love a person
does that mean you must show all your love towards her/him

lovingyoudeepdowninsidemyheart

Am I not making any difference in your life?

2008-08-08T22:21:00.002+10:00

因为有你
世界变得更精彩

我爱你

2008-08-08T14:18:00.002+10:00

I'm being selfish in all this time
I never care about her feelings

I'm here will all my sincere heart to beg for your forgiveness

发觉我根本不是个好情人
为你改变
让你快乐

warming up

2008-08-06T22:36:00.002+10:00

Mom and Dad are always the sweetest person in my life
I have been sick since I back in Melbourne

Today mommy ring me and asked me:
"do you want me to fly over boil soup and take care you?"

Daddy ring me and talked to me:
"I'm sick as well. Did you went to see doctor?"
"I'm okay already daddy no worries"
"Are you sure? Are you bluffing? Do you want me and mommy fly over there to bring u happy happy and take care you?"

So sweet of them

2008-08-06T19:06:00.002+10:00

Diana, Kermess and I 38

Neoprints rules:
1. always left out
2. always at the side
3. the odd one

Friends of mine II

2008-08-05T23:09:00.006+10:00

I think this is all I could find for my friend and I pictures.
Couldn't get anymore
Realized that still some of my friends never took picture with me b4.
Need to catch up with them very soon =)

friends of mine I

2008-08-05T21:53:00.006+10:00

Part of my friends pictures were here but it's just PART of it only. I will try to collect everyone pictures and post a little by a little to full my blog =)

Friends are forever
love you guys

sick

2008-08-05T20:39:00.002+10:00

Last two weeks I was sick and actually within this two weeks never ever totally recovered yet.
well.. now I'm once again sick T_____T

Went out today to get some medicine for myself
after that, went to laksa me to have dinner =)
hamburger made by Mr.Arthur

Friends are always there when you need a hand
Friends will never leave you at aside

When I'm sick:
Porridge from friends
Foods from friends
Medicine from friends
Care from friends
Concern from friends

For the very special someone:
I'm sorry for not being taking good care of myself
ended up making you worried

Myself

2008-08-05T01:05:00.002+10:00

Current condition:

Jobless
In love
Assignments attacking
Money needed
Cough-ing
Recovered from fever
Looking for new job

camwhore

2008-08-04T23:52:00.004+10:00

Pictures taken in Malaysia:

Me and Lee Mei C (Michelle)

My nephew with two girls (phewwwww =.=")

Big Apple In Ipoh

Valerie and I

William mushroom head and I

Pictures taken in Melbourne:

Karen and I acting cute but failed

me and myself

Buddy and I

me, myself and I again

Another semester come
things change and a brand new life =)

2008-08-04T05:12:00.001+10:00

I guess I owe you too much
I guess I never care about your feeling these days
Sorry for my bad
Sorry for not being understanding
Sorry I'm always the one who wanted you to change
I guess is time for me to change as well
At least we could have a good start
We will have forever start and there is no ending =)

toilet incident.

2008-07-17T22:21:00.000+10:00

Today, is a funny day.

I seriously dislike to go toilet by myself because I know is a bit weird for me going in to a girl's toilet. This time was the funny one. I'm waiting for my turn and there is a woman with her kid coming into the toilet and the kid was asking the mom "Are we in the right toilet?" "why there is a boy in the toilet?"

And I was like stunk and I quickly explain to the kid that I'm a girl and not a boy!
I seriously feel so paiseh lah. sighz. a bad experienced in the toilet.

I shall not to go to the toilet by myself next time.

-

2008-04-07T05:01:00.000+10:00

Stuck in the middle
Should I go on or go back?

sighz

-

2008-04-02T14:12:00.002+11:00

Different people consist of different point of view
In different context you can have different point of view on the same person

I force to be having the same point of view in different context
because I meant to do so
I cannot have my own stand
I always depends on how people thinks

but now I change
I do what I think is right.

I feel better right now
I feel that's something waiting for me to look for

T_T

2008-03-28T14:57:00.003+11:00

I think I'm strong enough
I think I can hide things good enough
but everything come to NO!

I never plan to telling you the truth in the blog
but in the end I DO!

I hope what I done won't make you disappointed
I hope I saying out the truth is better than I hide it from you

Sorry for being bad!

daily questions.

2008-03-17T00:10:00.001+11:00

Daddy and Mommy always facing the same question when people saw me.

Others: Is that your son? *pointing at me*
Daddy: NOOOOO! that's my daughter, okay!
Mommy: Oh yea If I could get one more son.

Daddy and mommy always ask me not to be masculine, trying to be more girly. I told them that's not my style. I told you already what I like girl. I like to be masculine because I would like to protect my girl. LOL!

2008-03-13T00:34:00.001+11:00

Just ignore me for not updating.

Busying with the current part time job.

Busying with my school works.

Everything bothering me!

I'm finding my way to out of all this.

I need liquors!

I know liquor cures.

2008-03-01T01:08:00.003+11:00

Working experience?
~~Nope~~
I worked for my mother before.
I worked in those illegal place before.

But now brand new job
Currently work at Crown casino food court.
Basically the job wasn't that hard, but it is a little bit hard for me.
maybe I'm too stupid
maybe I'm new
maybe I'm ~~not concentrating in working~~ missing her so much
maybe I'm a little bit of slow motion

There is too much of ~~maybe~~ EXCUSES!

Worked for 4 hours. Not long at all
I thought I can work longer but I'm still new so disallowed to do that.
I want money!
Money that what I'm craving all this while.

I love you
You love me
We are happy family!
I'm yours
and you're mine
We are belongs to each other!

p/s: Going to clubbing tomorrow night!
Let's go to see some hot chicks *praying hard if there any*

2008-02-28T14:36:00.003+11:00

~~The last day of February~~

Nah... Don't forget this year there is one day extra for Feb! 29th of Feb

I wondered people who born on 29th Feb what they will do with the day which appear once in 4th yrs?
Will they received birthday present X 4?
I had never met any of my friends birthday drop on 29th Feb.
Do you have one?
If yes tell me how she past her day?

How much I needed?
How worst is OPTUS?
Wait for couple of weeks and now they tell me I need to apply once again!

2008-02-27T23:21:00.003+11:00

Damn it!

I cut my hand with the scissors =(

It was blah blah blah

2008-02-26T23:27:00.003+11:00

Sometimes I wonder if i lost in some day
Will anyone realized?

University just reopen but I'm stressed out.
Basically there are 4 units PSY2031, PSY2051, MTH1030, JPL2030. None of them I feel relax with!
Japanese's lecturer not that good. Kinda fierce it ruined my interest to that class.
Maths's lecturer is cute and friendly.
Psychology 2031's lecturer is damn boring okay! 2 hours of the lecture, but mostly people skip the lecture half way. So can you imagine how boring she's?
Psychology 2051's lecturer??? I have no idea cos I gonna skip all of her/his class.

I can't asleep these days.
Once I lay on the bed.
Everything come into my mind.
eg.
I'm lonely
I'm stressful
I'm sad
I need to work harder in this semester
I need to pass all my exam
I miss my parents (including my brother who used to stay with me)
I miss HER so much!

I'm sorry I just can't stop missing you. I need housephone! *crosses fingers* OPTUS call me tomorrow and tell me you're coming to my house install the phone. I need it deadly to call her.

I don't want to stay alone. Staying alone is the best thing. But it just make me feel so lonely.
I don't want all this.
Please get out from my life.

MUST

2008-02-25T21:34:00.004+11:00

There are plenty of MUST in my life.
Parents ask for too much

i MUST study hard
i MUST work hard
i MUST behave myself
i MUST be independent
i MUST be tough
i MUST not to cry!

But there is always a MUST in my heart
i MUST love you from the bottom of my heart!

i miss you so. Please tell me you miss me too!

-

2008-02-24T22:31:00.004+11:00

Have you ever try to think about the current me?

Have you ever think what I'm thinking?

I used to talked a lot

Am I the only one who is changing?

Or the world is moving? everyone is changing?

Due to LONELINESS

I changed
I cried
I kept my mouth shut

no one knows whats going on with me
no one knows the internal me
no one comfort me when I needed

I'm just all the time ALONE

Sorry I'm just too emo

2008-02-24T14:25:00.002+11:00

There is another 24hours and I need to back to the survivor place.

DARN........ I don't wanna go to school. When it comes to true, we always want to invert it.

2008-02-23T22:57:00.002+11:00

Arhemmmmmmmm...

There is something very surprising happen today

you know what?

I cooked =)

Egg+Ham+Mushrooms

First, fried the ham

Second, add in mushrooms

Then, here it come with the eggs *the nicest part*

Done! *the ugliest part*

crocs

2008-02-22T22:04:00.004+11:00

Here is my toilet mat!
with my crocs shoes =)

It is very cute! I like all the buttons very much
Don't you found it very cute?

What did I do in this 2 days?
Morning wake up watch hk series
then eat
then watch again
then go interview
then come back watch again
Non-stop watching movie!

Wondered how I can shed some pounds with this kind of life?

Dear friends,

I'm planning to go somewhere else during end of this year holidays with my girl

but I still can't decide where to go?

Do you guys have any idea?

recommend me some place!

chap goh meh

2008-02-21T18:42:00.005+11:00

Reached Melbourne on 7th February

It mean the first day of Chinese New Year I'm in Melbourne

Couldn't celebrate in Malaysia

equal to

Didn't gain a lot ANG PAU

Not much ANG PAU i had
but I still happy with the VALUE i got

AUS 470
RM 275.00

Time flies fast and here it comes to Chap Goh Meh*the last day of CNY*
Parents LEFT me yesterday
and I'm ALONE celebrating at home
*sobbing*

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEH TO ALL OF YOU

2008-02-21T11:14:00.004+11:00

Woke up in the morning
I'm trying to look for my parents

and I realized they're back in Malaysia
definitely I can't see them until end of June or November

Now I'm certified as ALONE! *tissues using*

I wanna go home.
I wanna go home.
I don't want to be alone.

home sick

2008-02-20T23:59:00.003+11:00

House full of noises making by mom, dad, sis and william in the last 2 weeks, within an hour everything change. I'm left behind now. There is only me in the house! No others

Currently I'm down

I'm lost

I'm home alone

I'm missing home

I'm crying

due to home sick!

Mom, Dad, Sis, and my lovely William may you guys have a safe journey
Do miss me when all of you back in Malaysia
Remember far apart there is me

*swearing* Can't I just stop myself from tears?

Jobless

2008-02-20T00:15:00.002+11:00

I'm jobless at the moment

I need a job

I need $$$$$

So that I got money to fly back Malaysia on my next holidays

I'm missing her, it makes me feel like flying back straight away

but things doesn't work out like what I think.

Currently looking for job:
Krispy Kreme
Mcd
Think Asia

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2008-02-20T00:10:00.002+11:00

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2008-02-19T08:15:00.005+11:00

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2008-02-18T16:31:00.001+11:00

............. Speechlesssssssss

I'm just too hot to say anything!

Melted! Melted! Melted!

Melting

2008-02-17T23:32:00.005+11:00

Last two days! The weather was still cold

but........

Yesterday was getting hotter
and now

Is much more hotter than yesterday
Kanasai-ERrrrrrr

outting

2008-02-16T17:59:00.004+11:00

Last night went to Max Brenner for dessert with my parents.

Let's pictures tell the story

souffle

Fondue for two

Drink me! My cookieshake =)

2008-02-15T23:01:00.003+11:00

I'm useless

when you need me, and I'm not there

when you're sick, I'm not be able to take care you

I just can pray hard for you

That's all I can do.

Sorry dear.

2008-02-14T23:49:00.004+11:00

God, I'm here to pleased that I can overcome all this and at the end I be able to stay by her side for the rest Valentine's day. I want my life full of YOU, without loneliness.

That's what I'm searching for.

No other choice, but I'm looking to the bright side.

p/s: Having you is my pleasure
I may not be your perfect
but you're perfect to me

Valentine's day

2008-02-14T10:42:00.002+11:00

Happy Valentine's Day

May you be my Valentine?

Outgoing

2008-02-13T22:20:00.007+11:00

Weather: Sunny, a little bit of cloudy in the morning

Mode: Happy in the sense of emo

Venue: Melbourne Zoo

Time: 10am-4pm

Walked for the whole morning
spent it totally in the Zoo
with the laughing
around me
which bring the emo me to stand strong

I hope I could be better when my parents leave me

My little nephew was running after those "bird"

One of the best shot of the Lion

Sister and I was trying to be cute
but it failed

While my nephew is above me
He keep playing with my hair
and he's so heavy!

Taking a great shot with the bear =)

William was trying to kiss the monkey *shout*

Where is my dad?

The snow bear is so dirty! *yucks*

I'm emo, don't stay close!

Sorry for the valentine's day
I couldn't be by yourside!
Thanks for your present
and I do appreciate it =)

2008-02-13T00:42:00.001+11:00

I can't sleep well

I can't lay on the bed

I miss you so much

Keep your heart with me

Don't leave me alone

Sorry I'm too emo.

Roulette

2008-02-12T23:55:00.000+11:00

Bought this by my mother
ROULETTE
My parents not used to play it in Casino
Well... They don't even gamble
but one of their business
is gambling!
Can say it is not ~~illegal~~ (shhhhh..)
After dinner with my parents and cleaning up the kitchen
then we started to play the GAME
obviously I ~~gained a lot~~ 14 bucks only
Daddy is so ~~funny~~ ~~cute~~ KIASU
because he kept blablabla....
when we won
he said the roulette must be not working properly

Don't left me behind without watching my steps

CNY

2008-02-10T15:16:00.000+11:00

Back in Melbourne with nothing different
the only different is this time my little nephew
following me back to Melbourne!
He's so cute
but NAUGHTY
Seriously once my sister told me that
my nephew is following us
I'm kinda worry
because my house is full of carpet
What if he pee without telling us
then I'm gonna headache
but things going what i expected

~~Ignore this 2 pictures~~
Do you think both of them is the same person?
lolx

I still got alot pictures with gown
let's see how is my post going
if good I'll think of post in and let u all see

p/s: incomplete without you =(

you're cute enough

2008-02-10T00:54:00.001+11:00

I know I miss you
but you miss me too *might be true*
but because too miss me and still cough?
CANNOT BE LAR..

Me: Why you still cough? *ahemm*
Bby: Because I too miss you already, that's why!
Me: Nah, you never eat medicine then you blame me, NAUGHTY!

You this cute little tiny liar
don't try to pretend oh!
but you still look cute with all this

the 100th post

2008-01-22T17:24:00.000+11:00

My little bloggie 100th post!

Celebrating it by putting on my little nephew pictures!

His hair definitely will make u laugh until rolling on the floor *LOLZ*

He smiles like a crazy! *lol*

how much we look alike?

2008-01-20T14:11:00.001+11:00

announce

2008-01-06T19:07:00.000+11:00

Stop blogging for 1 month and here i'm back with no any new updates yet!

Will be updating when I back in Australia
Be patient if you want to get any new updates from me =)

Missing

2007-11-26T19:02:00.000+11:00

She went to camp *seremban* for 10days
and i'm here alone for 10days
I miss her all time
she never noes for sure
I had a bad dream
for being too missing you
I want you to back to myside faster
I just need you
You're the only one I need!

untitled

2007-11-17T20:03:00.000+11:00

Malaya Anne

Happy birthday in Advance =)

yippee yeah yeah

head to KL tomorrow luu

and yeah will be in KL for

4 days

if i'm not mistaken =P

back home

2007-11-16T22:05:00.000+11:00

Back in Malaysia for another 1 week =)
Fun, Happy, Enjoy, Interesting...... etc.

There is much more fun to staying at Malaysia with my beloved parents and my sweetheart.
Went to eat 2 in 1 steamboat with my dear last night. The foods was pretty good and the price wasn't that expensive. We ate alot lamb, beef, fish, chicken *lol*
Seriously I think eat at 2 in 1 steamboat is much more worth to eat at those steamboat. I'm waiting for next week then we will eat milk steamboat and porridge steamboat. And this coming sunday, I'm going to KL with my dear and we will be going to have a trip at KL. Our 1st trip for tis time i come back from Australia *wink*.

*COME HOME AND I NON-STOP EATING*

*OUCH*

*GAINING WEIGHT*

Doneeeee

2007-11-09T19:15:00.001+11:00

I'm officially done with my EXAM luuuu XD

Yippeeeeee ^^

Another 5hours I'm flying back to MALAYSIA

Another 12hours I'll reach KLIA

Another 15hours I'll reach IPOH

LOL

T_______T

2007-11-06T20:52:00.000+11:00

I'm currently so depress

yes?

Any evidence given to support?

yeah after you see the pictures then you will know

Let the pictures described my current feeling

well, my emotion is getting worst everyday
The more i near to the sociology paper the more i
EMO!

susah hati dengan life macam ini
serioulsy sangat TERUK!
memang TERUK!
tentu TERUK!

tak apa habis semua ni
saya balik kampung
dan semua ni akan follow the wind blow away!

right?

stressed out

2007-11-05T22:39:00.001+11:00

I swear i will never do ~~SOCIOLOGY~~ anymore in my life

it is KILLING ME ~~SOFTY~~ HARDLY *sobbing*

but I need to do 2 more units if i fail this f***ing social theory!

d*** i can't wait to finish it!

I cry silently
because of it

insomnia
because of it

I feel stressed out
because of it

everything because of you!

p/s: can i have BRINDHA'S brain cells?

p/s/s: Friends please give me a big warm hug to bring me out from all this!

Wedding's picture

2007-11-05T19:30:00.001+11:00

Browsing my sister wedding's picture and it make me feel so sweet and loving!
If you plan to have a nice wedding photo shooting why not you choose TRUE LOVE SIGNATURE?
Sorry for not link to any website because there is not website for this shop yet.
But trust on me I'll never introduce you to a wrong shop and spoil your lovely wedding shooting.
This shop broadly characterized as a shop which mainly based on simple and plain shooting if you're looking for a simple and nice picture for your wedding
then give them a try to help you!
It's definitely give you a great job with great services!
They're professional and serve you the best!

True Love Signature
Address: 15-17, Jalan Raja Ekram,
30250 Ipoh, Perak, Malaysia
Phone Number: 05-2427688, 2428688
Fax Number: 05-2429688

Here is the pictures for my sister's wedding at SYUEN HOTEL's ballroom
well, if you're from Ipoh and you're looking for some ballroom for any special accasion
yeah! SYUEN HOTEL may be the best choice for you!
SYUEN HOTEL consider as the nicest hotel in Ipoh which may give you the best services.
I pretty sure if you have your wedding dinner at SYUEN HOTEL, they may give you the best in Ipoh and you will definitely happy with their services!

Syuen Hotel
Address: 88, Jalan Sultan Abdul Jalil,
30300 Ipoh,
Perak Darul Ridzuan, West Malaysia
Phone Number: 05-2538889
Fax: 05-2533335

Randomly:

My lovely nephew, who is 2yrs old now!
He's so cute who always bring fun for me and my parents!

Overseas Student Health Cover (OSHC)

2007-11-04T19:59:00.000+11:00

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Without a proper Overseas Student Health Cover (OSHC), you may not be able to have your enrolment in your university. You may not be able to stay in Australia.

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Texas Hold'em Poker

2007-11-04T19:12:00.000+11:00

Exam is around the corner and the holidays will be pretty soon. Have you found any online game to use up your extra free time?

1 month ago i found this online Texas Hold'em Poker in facebook. It is pretty sure not a tough game everyone can handle it very easily and you may contact with people in different countries by playing with them. Person who from 3-80 years old will be able to handle it if you have a computer with you. Beside of playing poker you can chat with people around the world with the chat box they offered in the table. Well, once i get my ass on the table I'll never able stop myself to stop playing. You'll addicted to it because it is a nice game!

Scared of playing poker in the crowd casino? Why not siting at home and install the application of Texas Hold'em Poker play it without wearing formally to a casino?

Browse the table which suit you the best with your money on hand and have a nice play with your friends or people from other countries!

Phone

2007-11-04T10:24:00.001+11:00

I always wonder people who live at rural areas how could they survive without a phone or internet?
well, to me i don't think i will be able to stay at any place without a phone nor internet.
is just a thinking, no offense okay?!

everyone have their own personality.
to me without technology is like killing me *pathetic eyes*
but for others might be okay
and for some might love it!

just depends which kind people are you.